Stearnzie

1 Year Post Surgery

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. Hebrews 13:8

Today marks the 1 year anniversary of my Posterior Decompression (Brain Surgery) for my Chiari 1 Malformation.

On this day, I’m reminded of God’s faithfulness. There are so many times in our lives when we think, “if I can just get through this thing” then all will be well… Maybe there’s some truth to that, but I’m finding that there are many more “things” around the corner. Yes, this was a big one, so its a little different, but that doesn’t mean there won’t be other big ones in the future. All I know is that God is faithful in the big ones, the small ones, and all the “ones” in between.

I’m also aware that we tend to draw REALLY near to God when things get scary, and then when things calm down a bit, and the scary thing diminishes, so can our closeness to God who got us through it all.

I’d like to say that this experience has radically changed my habit of drawing close to God in my daily life, but that’s not the case. Don’t get me wrong, it has changed, but I wouldn’t use “radically” to describe it. Over time, I’ve again become self sufficient in thinking “I’ve got this”, and the truth is I’m only fooling myself. I don’t got this. I never did. I need Him just as much today as I needed Him on that operating table one year ago. Thankfully God isn’t as fickle as I am. He is not moved and swayed by emotions like me. He’s constant.

I will live with Chiari Malformation for the rest of my life, but thanks to the gift of modern medicine, I will hopefully live a symptom free life. Thanks to the grace of Jesus, I can come to God boldly & imperfectly through life’s big ones, little ones, and all the ones in between.

Thank you to all of you who helped me through this last year. To my wife Missi, I couldn’t have done this without you, I love you!

If you are reading this and you’ve been diagnosed with Chiari Malformation, or know someone who has, please feel free to contact me at stearnzie@gmail.com – Chiari is a scary thing, no one should walk through it alone.

 

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  1. Anita & John ,Louisa & Gabi Hall Reply

    Thank you for the update!
    Once again beautiful choice of words and emotions that were well expressed ❤️
    Wishing you all the best for the future, you will forever have a big place in our hearts ♥️

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