1 Year Post Surgery

Today marks the 1 year anniversary of my Posterior Decompression (Brain Surgery) for my Chiari 1 Malformation.

On this day, I’m reminded of God’s faithfulness. There are so many times in our lives when we think, “if I can just get through this thing” then all will be well… Maybe there’s some truth to that, but I’m finding that there are many more “things” around the corner. Yes, this was a big one, so its a little different, but that doesn’t mean there won’t be other big ones in the future. All I know is that God is faithful in the big ones, the small ones, and all the “ones” in between.

I’m also aware that we tend to draw REALLY near to God when things get scary, and then when things calm down a bit, and the scary thing diminishes, so can our closeness to God who got us through it all.

I’d like to say that this experience has radically changed my habit of drawing close to God in my daily life, but that’s not the case. Don’t get me wrong, it has changed, but I wouldn’t use “radically” to describe it. Over time, I’ve again become self sufficient in thinking “I’ve got this”, and the truth is I’m only fooling myself. I don’t got this. I never did. I need Him just as much today as I needed Him on that operating table one year ago. Thankfully God isn’t as fickle as I am. He is not moved and swayed by emotions like me. He’s constant.